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selections from Anna Karenina by Leo Tolstoy

‘I think,’ said Anna, toying with the glove she had taken off, ‘I think . . . if there are as many minds as there are men, then there are as many kinds of love as there are hearts.’ Continue reading

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notes from 2012: The Return of Quetzacoatl by Daniel Pinchbeck

“Love never faileth; but whether there be prophecies, they shall fail; whether there be tongues, they shall cease; whether there be knowledge, it shall vanish away. For we know in part, and we prophesy in part. But when that which is perfect is come, then that which is in part shall be done away.” — 1 Corinthians 13:8 Continue reading

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facts of life [archive-lj]

i just drank a whole nalgene bottle of water. it was delicious.

what’s really interesting, i think, is the fact that water isn’t always delicious. the drink tasted delicious this time because i was thirsty. i could even tell, as the water level sank below the halfway point, and further still, that the good taste gradually transformed to a worser and worser taste. so, what i concluded is that factors in our life really only become significantly desirable when they become significantly needed.

this really isn’t a groundbreaking conclusion. likely, we’ve all talked about it before, but i like to make things really, really obvious. and then i like to take the obvious and tie it to the not-so-obvious.

okay so, let’s apply to this food. naturally, food tastes absolutely ambrosiac when eaten only after hunger has kicked in. the hungrier you are, the better your food tastes. this is all still pretty obvious. but okay, what if we split up food into different categories? if our body can provide us with hints as to when we don’t need water anymore, can it provide us with hints as to more complex bodily needs?

does milk start tasting worse if we don’t need anymore calcium?
does pasta start tasting worse if we don’t need anymore carbohydrates?
does meat start tasting worse if we don’t need anymore protein?

if our body actually alerted us like this, i would be amazed. i wonder if any controlled experiments have actually been run on the matter. regardless, we can make the question even more complex. what about drugs?

what motivates a human being to take drugs? a lot of authoritative figures answer, “peer pressure”. a lot of college students answer, “because it’s fun”. and then there’s a whole group of people who use drugs to send their depression and troubles away. there’s so much more to drug use, i know, but i’ll just discuss these issues.

can each answer be broken down in the same i way broke down water/food use?

1. Peer Pressure.

from the evolutionary perspective, human beings need a group of human beings to be a part of–it is essential to survival in the wild. thus, the body heartily accepts, for example, alcoholic beverages in order to join a group already accepting of it. that’s easy enough to see.

2. Happiness/Depression.

to introduce this concept, let’s accept that “state -1” represents a negative view of life, “state 0” represents an indifferent view, and “state 1” represents a positive view. if the perfect human body existed, it would always be hydrated, it would always have the right amount of calcium, and it would always be at state 1. in reality, though, we sometimes have deficiencies. sometimes we have to drink water. sometimes we have to drink milk. and sometimes, we have to make ourselves happier.

assuming drugs are the only path to happiness, for the sake of this concept, it can be said that a -1 person will drink/smoke/etc to get to either state 0 or state 1 (it can be argued that reaching state 0 would be a good enough improvement to someone accustomed to state -1). furthermore, a 0 person will drink/smoke/etc to get to state 1 and a state 1 person might drink/smoke/etc to reach the heightened state 2. the logical conclusion would be that state 1 people do less drugs than state 0 people and that state 0 people do less drugs than state -1 people.

does this play out in reality? i’m not inclined to look up statistical data, so i’ll claim that the following is all true: the greatest amount of drug use takes place among the impoverished–that’s where -1 is the majority. within the middle-class and upper-class, a pretty moderate amount of drug use exists; i would argue that there, 0 is the average. (unfortunately, this would mean that our society averages at about -0.5, but that’s a discussion for a later time).

SO. What’s the point? well, remember the conclusion above that “state 1 people do less drugs than state 0 people and that state 0 people do less drugs than state -1 people”? sure, the -1 mind will say DRINK DRINK WE NEED TO GET TO 0, but what’s the problem with that? well, if one tends to be a -1 most of the time, one will drink often, and slip into addiction. many drugs are addictive in this matter. unfortunately, the mind is easily susceptible to addiction. here’s the point i want everyone to see:

Of course, I may not be invincible, but I am a positive one person.

Current Mood: hopeful
Current Music: king crimson: the power to believe

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